Once he told me to bring a change of clothes to school. Pair of jeans, he said. And a jacket. I didn’t tell him that I would, but I did, and minutes after the last bell he caught me in the hallway.
“You bring your other clothes?”
“I might have.”
“Put ‘em on.”
“This is a little weird, Jacob. Why would I do that? What’s going on?”
“Just trust me on this. You’ll be happy. You won’t get into any trouble.”
I turned and went opposite to all the outgoing crowd in the hallway and back to the now empty girls gym locker-room, put on shorts and sneakers and a jacket and left my dress and loafers in my locker. When I came back to the doorway where I had left Jacob he was just outside, on the walkway, sitting on his red motorbike.
“Come on. Get on. Time’s wastin’”
Up until then I had had my own ideas about motorcycles. They were dangerous and loud and show-offy. I didn’t like the culture they represented. The grease and noise of it all. But Jacob’s bike was small, and it did not blare or blast. Its motor sounded buzzy and non-threatening. But I still hesitated.
“I’ve never done that. I don’t think I should.”
“All you have to do is hold on. It’ll be alright. You’ll love it.”
I climbed on the seat behind him.
“You’ve got to hold on.”
I grabbed the strap on the seat. He chuckled.
“No, not to that thing. It won’t hold you. You’ve got to hold on to me.”
And I did. And we rode off the schoolyard and onto the road, still crowded with students waiting for buses and cars. He wove the bike through them all and in minutes we were on the river road, and he opened the throttle and the engine revved and then buzzed and I held him tighter and there we were flying through the cool air and sunlight with the green river sparkling beside us, my hair wild in the wind. Right in the middle of it all. When we stopped at a railroad crossing for an oncoming coal train, a place I had never been, I caught my breath and realized something that in my till-then prim and self-compacted life I had never experienced. I had not given a thought to where we were and even as I realized that I was not alarmed. This was new for me. For once I did not care where I was going, where we were going. It was in that moment that I allowed myself to admit that this must have been the thing that my friends had told me about. The thing that they said I had been missing all along. Life.
It was only that night when I was back in my bedroom, still glowing from the day’s ride that I said to myself that what I had experienced was not just the thing my friends had told me about. It was far more than that.
This trip was one of many beginnings I experienced in those few weeks. After it was all over with Jacob I worked very hard not to dwell on or even recall the things we had done or the feelings of those hours. But I didn’t always succeed. And if there was one emblem, one symbol of our time together, one thing that marked the rare and distinct time, it was that little bike.
It was our magic carpet.
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